Trevor look into palliative care or patient advocate. Search for those two on the internet and see what you can find. An advocate can help you find the right doctors that you like and will help you. They will deal with making appointments, insurance, equipment and anything related to the care of helping you. Palliative care is all about comfort of the patient(you) I have given you two things you can do and it only take a search on the internet and a phone call to see if it would help you. Why don't you try doing it, it does not take much energy. Good luck.

I doubt that very much
Trevor, but if u continue to talk like this, u could very well get put
into a mental hospital Trevor, be very careful what words u choose when u
speak, saying prayers for u Trevor God bless you!. Xxxx

Sounds like you’re having a hard day, I’m sorry. I’m feeling pretty isolated and miserable myself today. Today will pass and there will be some reason I’m glad I’m here. As a psychotherapist I can understand why you feel this way today…my wish for you is to find someone to talk with in person…not for them to cure you, but for you to let it all out, and still feel accepted. I know that person is out there for you…I’m wondering if your mother could help you find someone. Sending love, hugs, and prayers for you. ❤️

Trevor, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I understand being in horrible pain and depression. If it's possible to move around a bit that might help. Perhaps speak to a therapist. I'm praying 🙏 that relief is sent your way.

Trevor can you get outside for a walk in the park? Fresh air and listening to the birds can lift your spirits. I know it's hard to be in that place. You have to advocate for your health. I pray 🙏 you find help you need.
Force yourself to get out and get going. 💪